What Flies So Fast?

Midday with a little amount of sunlight. It is a bit cloudy. After rain doesn’t fall for so long – finally it was poured so hard late day and night. After wandering around for months and considering a lot of things, I think this is the right time to decide.

It is not only about dreams or challenges. It is not only about pursuing something or someone you loved to be with. More than that, it is about a time to settle down and define a new life.

Seeing these students laugh and run there and here reminds me that it is been so long after I graduated from high school. I am not a teenager who needs to fool around. I am not a kid anymore, although some childish sides of me are still here.

I do not know that people become mature so fast.

I do not know that time flies too fast.

It was just yesterday when I was so happy to get the new shoes to be used in my first day of elementary school. It was just yesterday when I was elected as part of IPPNU MA Ma’arif 7’s Big Family. It was just yesterday when I was so proud to be the part of this Bahrul Huda Foundation. But who knows that it is been months, it is been years, and I am still me with no difference.

Do you have an idea what will happen next?

Do you have ideas to transform yourself into a fully-grown-man?

They told me that maturity is coming from experiences. And it does. My friends and I agreed that maturity is about with whom we are talking about. It is not well-defined.

However, when I see Maudy Ayunda and Belvadevara – I always think that they are well-grown in their young ages. They achieved so many achievements when they are in twenties-age. It is great. Sometimes I was so jealous to their capability of managing times and urging their self to be consistent in the hard-works. Sometimes, I was so jealous that they are able to manage their emotions so well.

Then now, I learned to manage mine too. Trying to be stable and consistent. Wherever I am, it is a laboratory to learn and experience new things, to grow and develop as well.

Do you still have an idea what will happen next, Ba?

It is not our obligation to think about it. We just need to do our best. No matter what the results. It is hard sometimes. It is itchy sometimes. It is bleeding sometimes. But trust that things are coming and going right in its time. No need to worry about the future. No need to be afraid taking the decision. As long as you have the strength inside your heart, the family to support you no matter what, then you will keep alive inside and outside; Then you are still you whatever comes through.

One thing – love makes us strong.

When we are so weak and fragile – realizing that love surrounds us is so abundant will make us able to stand and run again. Then keep that love inside your heart. Because without loving, we won’t be able to see and feel loves in this universe.